Emotion Avoidance
Jun. 22nd, 2025 02:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I forgot to mention that I got my camping mattress from REI. My sleeping bag should arrive on Monday. Then I'll have to test them out. I second-guessed my choice of sleeping bag, but it has an outer polyester shell and a removable inner down bag. So I could take the down bag out for summer camping.
Lily is lying flat on the floor upstairs, stretched out. I don’t know why she is up here when it’s cooler downstairs. Hmm, Oliver was upstairs too. Keeping an eye on me?
Crud. I forgot to put clothes in the dryer, including my summer pajamas. I dug out some shorts and an “A Woman’s Place Is in the White House“ t-shirt (so much for that) to sleep in, which I can also wear for cleaning tomorrow.
Hmm. A CNN article about beating the heat suggested sleeping in the basement. Maybe I should test my camping mattress down there.
Oliver discovered the package of little cat ball toys, and he’s trying to open it.
I’m in bed, and Bella is zonked out cold in her bed.
Woke up at 8 AM. It’s already 80F/27C out. Sigh. Fed us all. Now it’s nap time. Napped, and now I feel groggy. Had lunch. A box of donuts fell down and Bella snatched one.
91F/32C now.
I’m going to nap for an hour and then get cleaning. Boy, did I zonk out. I dreamed that I was looking for a place to be buried in Urbana. Hmm. Bella is still asleep.
Oh fuck. I forgot about the garden walk today. Oh well. But it’s too hot anyway.
It is oppressively hot out (94F/34C). Crazy Bella wanted to lie in the sun. I convinced her to come in quickly though.
I’ve got the sleeping bag and the tent! The sleeping bag seems nice and cushy. I’m assuming that next weekend will be cooler so that I can practice pitching the tent. (The forecasters are predicting the high 80sF.) Maybe I’ll test the camping mattress and sleeping bag later. Oh, and I got the cooler. Bella is playing with the box that the sleeping bag came in. Now she’s bugging Oliver.
Okay, I’ve cooled off. I should get cracking on cleaning the house. I was petting Lily, and Bella was jealous. Critters :) Oliver is trying to tell me something, but I’m not sure what.
Oliver was climbing in the dishwasher. Fun with cleaning with pets. Got the clothes in the dryer.
I’m feeling shaky, so I’m making something to eat.
Hmm. Sling is advertising Queer As Folk for Pride. I always meant to see that, so maybe I’ll watch later if it’s on demand.
Bella is playing with a tug-of-war rope. She’s twirling it around.
I asked ChatGPT for women’s hiking sandals with wide widths. It recommended hiking sandals without wide widths. Sigh. Okay, the last one that they had did have a wide width, so I bought it.
Hmm. The BBC had an article about a "death cafe" in Bangkok, which asks, “Who would you talk to if it was your last night?” I don’t know the answer to that. I need to make more friends.
I have a headache. I need to feed the critters , but then I’ll lie down for a little while. Watered the outside plants while I was out with Bella. It occurred to me that I need to pull out the stake from the camping supplies because I’ll need to stake the puppy out while I work in the yard. I could put the dog pool out for her. Bella is flaked out on the kitchen floor. I’ll feed the cats and start cleaning the bathroom. Then I think that I’ll shower before bed.
I found a pair of waterproof Columbia hiking boots on sale. I checked, and I don’t have hiking boots, so I bought them. I need a taller shoe rack (ordered).
I’m feeling headachy and tired. I think that I’ll take my nighttime meds, post, and go to bed. I can clean in the morning when it’s cooler. Wow, it's hot upstairs. Work is going to suck on Monday. Maybe I'll bring my work laptop downstairs, where it's cooler. I need to get a workman to install my new air conditioner.
On eBay, I ordered a small wheeled cooler for camping. It wasn't too expensive.
Woke up at 6:30 AM, but went back to sleep for a half-hour.
There is a heat warning for this weekend through Monday. I'm planning to stay inside and clean in the air-conditioned comfort, except for watering the plants. It'll be shorts weather.
Lily is sleeping in the window upstairs. Very cute. I really want a nap. Bella is sleeping in today. Now Lily is head-bonking me :)
I downloaded the AllTrails app on my phone. There are some trails nearby that interest me. Bella and I need to build up our stamina! I ordered a second set of a collar and leash to keep in the car in case something happens to the primary one.
Napped over lunch and overslept slightly. I think that I want a nap after work, although I need to water the plants outside.
Crud. The arthritis in my hands is flaring up. I would stop working for a while, but I'm "backup on-call" for our ticketing system, and the people with whom I work is the primary on-call, so I need to stay put. I left a half-hour early and am going to lie down. I took some acetaminophen earlier.
I would like a pair of the Orthofeet Water Friendly sandals. I can’t decide between black and leopard though. (I really would like blue, but it’s sold out.)
I got confused about what days it has been between being out sick and the holiday yesterday. I thought that I missed my singing lesson, but that’s on Sunday.
Bella wants to snuggle and get petted. I told her that my hand hurts, but she thinks that I should still pet her. These are the Dog Rules. Tried to nap but couldn’t sleep. I want to watch TV, but Bella is snoozing. I watched three episodes of The Big Bang Theory. And my hand no longer hurts.
Fed us all and watered the outside plants. I’ll need to water them every day while the heat wave is going on. It was nice taking Bella out at 8 PM and it was still light.
Now it’s 9:30 PM. I’m going to post, feed the critters, and go to bed.
I booked the HipCamp. I got the tent site farthest from the road, so it should be quiet.
Got up a little before 9 AM. Manic dog is manic. Ate breakfast and now my stomach hurts. I need to feed the beasties and lie back down.
I’m trying to find the perfect pair of sandals. It’s hard because I have thick ankles.
Nap time. I’m not going to set an alarm because it’s a holiday. Bella is already crashed out. Woke up in the same amount of time that I would have taken had I set an alarm. I’m still feeling tired.
I’m looking at coolers for camping, but sheesh. Expensive.
Had lunch, and now my stomach hurts. I wish that I knew what was causing it. I’m going to lie down for a while.
Threw myself together and now I’m at the orientation for dog training. I feel okay if I don’t eat, just a little dizzy. I forgot to print off Bella’s shot records, but I had them on my phone.
I found a pair of sandals that look promising. They’re wide width by Orthofeet (ordered).
Bella is being manic. “You left! And came back! I’m so happy!”
I’m tired. I’m thinking of getting to bed early.
Woke up with my alarm at 6 AM. Bella was being annoying this morning. She kept on going back to where I think that she found the possums and barking. If that was the right spot, the mother had moved them. (Now I think that she saw the groundhog.) I kept trying to get her out of there and she kept on going back. I finally, finally convinced her to come in.
At least, I'm clean now.
Dropped my check for the flights and one-half the registration fee off. Now it’s nap time. Oliver was on my lap and he and Bella were squabbling, and I was trying to keep the peace. Then Oliver nipped me, and I escorted him out of the bedroom. Then I realized that I was so spaced out that I didn’t put The Club on the car, so I went out and did so. NOW it’s nap time.
Now a storm is rolling in. It's a big, nasty storm. It's making me nervous. There's a tornado warning northwest of here.
I found out when the Allerton Camp for Adults is taking place this fall (October 9 - 12). But it'll take two vacation days, and I'm using up my vacation days for the Sardinia trip, so I might not be able to do it. But now I know when I can go to Pere Marquette State Park to see the fall leaves. (Note to self: weekend of October 24th) I'll book the HipCamp soon. Hmm, I should try to make a camping meal at home before going camping. I want to do a dry run of everything.
I really want to nap tonight. I'm still having dizzy spells. I'll get the recycling out and lie down.
The tree people wanted to take the tree down tomorrow, but I said that it was a holiday for me, so I'd rather have it done on Monday.
Oh cool. Music of the Baroque is still offering concerts on demand. There are at least three concerts in which I'm interested. I had been chucking their mailings out because I thought that they had ended on demand. (They're in the Chicago area.)
Chico's sent me a coupon, and they have some great dresses, some of which have petites! I usually can't wear maxi dresses because I need petites. I found two dresses that I want: "Rio" dress and Metallic dress.
Got the recycling out. Go me. (They probably won’t pick it up tomorrow because of the holiday but just in case….)
I took Bella out on a leash. She was not happy. She did bounce back enough to pick up a stick, but she did not do her business.
Fed us all. Nap time. Couldn’t sleep. I’ll go post, feed the beasts, take Bella out, and go to bed for the night. Oh, and buy the Chico’s dresses and book the HipCamp for October. Bella is fast asleep though. I hate to disturb her. She jumped on the bed, and I’ve been snuggling with her. Very cozy. I found a petite travel outfit on Magellans that I like.
Okay, I've got the cat food dishes soaking and bought the clothes. I'll wend my way towards bed. Hey, I can sleep in tomorrow!
I confirmed that Illinois Canyon Trail at Starved Rock doesn't have stairs. It sounds like a nice hike. I need to dig out my hiking boots. Hmm, I need to get a second phone charger battery for camping. There's a limit to how much I'll rough it! I bought a travel dog bed for Bella.
It looks like Bella found another dead possum. Is she killing them? I might need to take her out on a leash at night. I’m calling her “Possum Breath”. Okay, she’s a dog and doesn’t know any better.
I was going to get ready for bed. Cats: not so fast. We didn’t get our second meal! They were right, so I fed them. Now I’m in bed.
Woke up at 8 AM. Emailed in sick. Two of the tickseeds are blooming!
We get Thursday off for Juneteenth, so I plan to do some gardening and cleaning.
Bella was digging in the back garden, so I threw a stick and distracted her. She’s busy chewing it. Now we’re inside. Bella is trying to “play” with Oliver and he gave her a swat. I told her that I speak Cat and he’s annoyed with her.
I need to check whether the lab at the hospital will be open on Thursday (Juneteenth). It would be a good time to get my blood work done.
Fed us all. My stomach hurts. Time to sleep.
Hmm, it’s going to go up to 87F today. I guess that I’ll shave my legs and put on shorts.
Bella is always up for a nap. My bed potato :) Woke up at 1PM.
I received the camping food. I want reusable grocery bags to put them in. I also received a tie-out for Bella, a lantern, and some pots. The tent should arrive on the weekend. Hmm, maybe I should save a box to also put stuff in. I’ll be "car camping".
I’m feeling better but shaky with some stomach cramps. Food should help. It did.
American Airlines flights to Reno are either early in the morning or late at night. I need to take a morning flight to get picked up in Reno by my dad. I’m wondering if I’ll need to overnight in Chicago.
Maybe I’ll take another nap. Bella was already in the bedroom ready to take a nap! Napped and woke up at 6 PM.
I’m feeling dizzy.
It’s predicted to be 93 and 95 F on the weekend. Fuck. Not great for yard work. It looks like an iris that I planted is coming up.
There are ants in my mailbox. It looks like some food spilled in there. I don’t have ant spray. I left the mail outside.
Fed us all. Ordered groceries. I’m trying to get the energy together to gather the garbage for pickup. Woah. I’m feeling dizzy.
The BBC had a video about how Cologne, Germany is sex-positive. It sounds like an interesting city that I’d like to visit.
Bella has a crinkly brown mailer. I can see the appeal. She’s now ripping it up.
I flipped through the destination guide to Greenville, SC, and it looks interesting.
Got most of the garbage out. Hot and dizzy.
I’m looking into Bark Air for when I study in Italy and France. Apparently they do take cats also.
I never did take a shower. I need to get up early to do so because I need to hand off my check to someone at work. It just occurred to me that I need to find out if I need to spell out the name of the consortium or not.
It's oppressively hot upstairs. And Lily wants to snuggle.
Now I can’t sleep. I got up and took my nighttime meds. Slept a while and overslept. Got up and emailed work. Exchanged emails with my boss. Said that I would be out sick.
Poor Bella is out cold. I told her that she could sleep last night and didn’t need to get up when I was up, but she stayed up late with me.
Slept for a while. It’s dark and slightly rainy out. I had to turn the lights on. Now it’s pouring. Bella and I came in just in time. Fed us all.
I saved an article about ticks because that’s what worries me the most about camping and hiking. I need to buy some "Off". I think that Bella’s flea meds also work on ticks. Ordered a camping lantern.
Good. The people at the conference are in the process of finding a new moderator, so everything is being taken care of. Time to go back to sleep.
I’m looking for a HipCamp near Pere Marquette State Park. I’ve wanted to go there in the fall for a while, but it’s a three-hour drive. I’d like to take Bella. I haven’t found any HipCamps in the area. I found a hotel in the area that someone said was pet-friendly, but their Web site doesn’t say that. I’ll look into it later. Okay, I found a pet-friendly hotel in Missouri that’s nearby and not very expensive. I need to pick a weekend in October because places will fill up with leaf-peepers (like me!) I’m telling Bella about it. Lots of new smells for her! I found a HipCamp that’s one hour away. I might do that. It looks like the closest place in Illinois.
I also found a HipCamp in Missouri that’s is very pretty with creeks and small waterfalls.
I’m feeling a sense of foreboding, and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s stress. Went back to sleep.
Bella was trying to eat a firefly. I told her no, we like fireflies. Oh good, it took off. It must be mating season because there are a ton of them.
I need to reimburse work for my flight, so I’ll need to book a trip within a year. Maybe I’ll fly out of the local airport when I go see my dad to use up the money. Or I could take a cruise, but I’ll use up a lot of my vacation time on the trip a year from this fall.
I need to feed the beasts (done). Bella is being manic. I had a vanilla yogurt with cookie dough crumbles. They are pure crack. Oliver is being snuggly. That’s my boy.
I was going to say that I’ll go to bed early, but it’s already almost 9 PM.
Bella cracks me up. When I feed the cats, she puts her paws on my lap and looks away from the cats because if she looked at them, she might lose control and eat their food. She seems to understand that I don’t want her to eat their food. I fed myself too.
Now I need to email work (done), post, take Bella out again, and go back to sleep.
I bought a tent and a sleeping bag on eBay. I would like to do some camping. I bought a two-person tent, so I could take Bella camping! I looked into some HipCamp sites.
I found a campground that I like. It’s near Starved Rock, so I could take Bella hiking (although she probably wouldn’t like the metal stairs). I wouldn’t take the puppy until she gets older. Though Starved Rock is wall-to-wall people in the summer. The fall would be better. I found the one trail that doesn’t have stairs (Illinois Canyon).
Starved Rock has dog-friendly cabins, but I can’t find out how much they cost.
I should test out the tent and sleeping bag in the back yard.
Got up at 8 AM. Fed us all. Did laundry. (My white towels came out looking good!) Now it’s nap time.
Napped. Moved around some stuff that’s by the front stairs outside. Now I’m boiling. I turned the ceiling fan on in the kitchen, although Bella doesn’t like it.
I’ve been working hard on the kitchen and packing on breaks. I still need to figure out one more outfit for the trip. Hmm, if I hand wash the clothes that I’m wearing on the plane, I’ll be okay.
I kind of want it to be dinner time because I need a break. I’m soaking the dog and cat dishes and am cooling off from being outside. I’m going to take a shower (done) and see if I perk up. It’s been almost 24 hours since I had my brows done.
I have an impulse to say that I can’t go on the business trip, but I should go. Getting ready to go is a hassle.
Started more loads of laundry. Finished packing my suitcase. The linen clothes will be nice and cool. Remembered my swimsuit. (The hotel has two pools.)
Now I’m going to take a SHORT nap. Bella is zonking out.
Ugh. Bella found a dead possum and wouldn’t let it go. I finally got her to come in with a food bribe. I need to go out and get rid of it.
I’ve decided not to go. I just can’t. I’ll tell the people at work I’m sick. Not a lie because my stomach is really upset. I just canceled everything and will email them about it in a few hours.